31.5.03
Westlife - If I let you go
Day after day time pass away
N' I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
* And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
** But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me (oh yeah)
How will I know if I let you go
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
Its such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
[Repeat * , **]
If I let you go (ooh baby)
Once again i'm think about
Taking the easy way out
[Repeat **]
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crescentian day today. the concert was pretty shiok. haha. i love mr gary tan's singing!! and the nc dance. they should just keep dancing for every sch event...haha...and can relive the crezawards each time. :D
chinese lesson wasnt too bad. the problem wasnt ms chia but me. i was just feeling too sleepy and my heart and mind just wasnt in the 4s2 clasrm. it was somewhere else and i was daydreaming. then the nx thing is i kept talking to shu min. talk talk, dream dream. nothing that chia said registered in my head. and she called me thrice to answer questions....was like a heart attack each time cos i wasnt concentrating and i had to think on the spot. and half the time i gave absurd answers....shu min should noe. so embarrassing. nvm. the best thing though was that she ended the lesson 15 mins earlier! yay! and for the first time, i finally woke up and was perky again. *sigh* it's no wonder i did so badly for chinese.
if i had twenty minutes left on this earth... i'd go hug and kiss[?!?!] her.
muahahahahaha...the most disgusting thing i've heard so far. to think she could even say that.
<<in my opinion>> if i had twenty minutes left on this earth... i'd spend the first 10 mins with my family, the next 5 with my friends, and the last 5 holding the person i love. because i'd like to spend the very last treasured second with and fall asleep in the arms of that special someone; to leave this place without regret, to leave this place with only bliss and love - to leave with that person's touch and memories of his/her face.
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30.5.03
cant believe gek ling found out. omigosh. she realli caught me off guard. she's pretty observant i must say. haha. but then again, it doesnt realli take a genius to figure everything out. hehe. i was so shocked when i heard what she said and i nearly stuttered out of panic and nervousness. thank goodness i didnt. or it'd be so ridiculous. the last thing i want now is for her to stumble across my blog. *prays*
the lit survey we stayed back for was totally crazy. 4 pages long...and i thought all we had to do was tick "agree" or "disagree" kind. and it turned out to be like an open-ended thingy, writing everything abt lit. was so draining and took a hell of a long time. had to think of everything i felt bout lit, abt how we were taught lit, how i benefitted from lit. oh well, that last qn i could think of a lot to say...haha..since i always repeat that to yash...hehehe...i learnt how to empathise by studying lit!! hehe..or was that an inborn talent in the first place? hehhee. :D
played the piano for half an hr today. has been quite a while since i last played for such a long time. haha. played all my favourite richard clayderman songs. think his songs are best at expressing frustration and depression. oh. and confusion. fur elise is best for depression and agony. im so experienced. haha. :) haix. wad to do. i haf to source for various outlets to release everything i feel inside or i'd just go mad one day. so, ya, its been proven effective so far. ;)
crescentian day tmr. sian. chinese till 3pm. double sian.
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29.5.03
I don't wanna be so shy, uh-uh
Everytime I am alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You see that, you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me, move it slow
There's things about me, you just have to know
Sometimes I run (Sometimes) Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
All I really want is to hold you tight
treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby, all I need is time
Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere ill ever be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you
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just ate wall's ice cream. omigod. simply perfect. its almost as perfect as b&j's...im so love with it!! the chocolate is so awesome. it has this same effect as b&j's... the ice cream has this special ability to melt so nicely in the mouth. not like some other dumb brands that cant do it. i think even haagan dazs cant reach that effect. i highly recommend wall's. i think im going to take my own sweet time to finish the tub all by myself as i always do to wonderful foods such as chocolate. have to savour the fantastic taste ya? :D
received a piece of good news today. i have no idea how to explain the entire feeling. was just so happy that i cried, or rather the tears just flowed out of my eyes. never thought that ppl could seriously cry cos they were happy. my first time. thought i shd reserve it for the time when im receiving Os results..haahhahah..but then again, who can guarantee that it'd be good news at that time right? hmmz..nvm...im just so happy. the efforts finally paid off. yay!!! :D
finally get to go home early today...but at the busstop, something totally appalling took place. i nearly regurgitated my entire lunch. totally disgusting. beyond description.
was looking high and low for my old collection of english CDs..hahah...those who noe me well enough will know that i onli listen to mandarin songs now. so....was looking thru the whole stack of CDs and all that i could find was my dad's CDs...just wonder where the hell they went. wanted westlife all of a sudden. couldnt find it. then when i found max 5, i was quite satisfied la. then when i opened the cover, it was empty! how infuriating! so now im left with the stupid mandarin mp3s again. quite sick of them. urgh...i want westlife!
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28.5.03
oh. forgot to mention sth. there were two chio rjc girls in the bus. both were chio. and i had a hard time deciding who was chioer. haha. they sat on the seats facing the opposite direction so i had a good view. and couldnt help staring cos i still couldnt decide who was chioer. both so chio leh...haix. lost my senses out of boredom. wonder if they have boyfriends. think should have la. haha. haix. im crapping.
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mrs aw didnt turn up for lessons again...WHY?! im like dying to know liao...urgh. apparently she signed in in the morning but was nowhere to be found afterwards. strange.
my water bottle's lost. haix. who wants to take my lousy pathetic water bottle...thank goodness i didnt bring the OP one...if not, my sis will just kill me. wonder where the bottle is now...wasnt in the hall when i went back to check. argh...its not the bottle that means much actually, but rather doro's design on it....you know, the friendship kinda thing...haha. doro, bet u're beaming now. :D and the fact that me, doro and yash use the same bottles. silly. now...maybe kaiwen took it back for me? cos she was fiddling with it in the hall...oh...or maybe she was too jealous of doro's design and just took it from me. that's so sad!! i want the bottle back. :(
there's tons of A maths hw. wonder how im going to ever finish it without even knowing the basic concepts behind the topic. that's the price i have to pay though, for not listening in class. but then again, mrs gek is someone who cant grab the 'audience's' attention...so its not entirely my fault right? hehe. the drudgery of a maths.
i almost thot my comp was plagued with virus. haha. the comp's clock had turned the date to the 1970s and the time 6AM instead of PM. scared the hell outta me cos blogger seemed screwed just now too. realli frightened of viruses cos my dad will start pointing fingers at either me or my sis since we're the frequent users. and i suppose we'll have a nice time sharing out the blame.
hunger pangs again. why do i always seem to be blogging when im hungry? hope dinner's good.
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27.5.03
today's another long day. got back all the results. then had chinese. and chinese was exceptionally "productive" cos chia left us alone. and i spent 2 hrs doing one gong han. hahaha...now the biggest thing i fear is that for the exams, i'll start taking my own sweet time to write. and guess wad, after crescentian day, there's chinese again. wth.
nothing great happened these two days. and i consider that good news. hehe. at least my mood is sustained at 'happy' mode.
just becos of today, i feel like ive grown closer to terri. haha. hmmz...i think its good. she's nice if she doesnt irritate me. and surprisingly she didnt, despite the fact that we were in the hall for the results. and usually she irritates me cos of either results or houses. think im being quite incoherent here. haha. nvm...kinda got influenced by daphne. and think daph realli ought to learn her lesson..hahaha...it all showed up in her geography exam. hahahaha. this is so funky.
i owe doro a cup of coffee. oh sheesh...was so close...thought i'd win the bet for sure. *sigh*
the bet: whoever gets lower for physics wins. and it so happened that i won her by just a little...kinda pathetic realli. we're betting on who gets lower and not who gets higher. the irony of it all. physics totally sux.
am starving. shall go hunt for food. ciao.
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25.5.03
went to the singtel retail shop today. wah biang. the guy serving us. i realli felt like boxing his face. realli irritated me like shit. my dad was damn irritated too but he put up with him. haha. just hearing him speak already pissed me off. had it not been for the sake of the phone, i'd have asked my dad to go elsewhere. idiotic guy.
didnt do much work today, other than completing my chi compo. unproductive once again. somehow the fact that chi Os is onli a week away doesnt quite seem to settle in. i dont feel the pressure and sense of emergency. ya, and if i slack again, i'll produce the same pathetic results as that of mid yrs'.
oh. ya. today i went to see this showflat..those promoters there...got two of them who were previously from mediacorp. when i stepped into the showroom i saw one of them. and was like *OH!* and then i controlled and kept quiet cos he was looking at me. then i couldnt hold it anymore and told my sis and mum. apparently they saw him too but i insisted that i was first to see him cos they didnt say anything right? haha. dunno. then after a while i saw the other one. then was like *EH?* cos his back was facing me. then i went to tell them again. haha. dunno wad their names are..they're not those popular big shots anyway...just know that i've watched their shows before. haah. ya, wah...damn tall guys....i mean, seriously cant tell from the tv....haha....and they're like more imposing and dashing...yupyup. :)
there's the sexuality thingy tmr. i wonder if i shd look forward to it. haha.
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